Shopper's Hysteria

Lately, intentional ways to spend my money and obtain money has been on my mind. I wrestle with the belief that money isn't everything while living in a capitalist world- it's a conundrum many people exist with today. Thanksgiving kicked off the Superbowl of consumerism- sales, limited-time, limited-edition, doorbuster sales, everywhere. Sales that make people spend their rent money, sales people die for. Shoppers Hysteria. It all feels sinister because the caste and hierarchy system that is needed in order for big corporations to thrive off of Black Friday and Cyber Monday/Week sales are dehumanizing and exploitive. But…well, I want to join in. Sale and dollar signs dangle in front of me but I'm not financially or morally in a healthy place to partake in this. I want all the nice things I can't afford. I want all the nice things I would feel guilty to purchase. It can't be wrong to want to treat myself and yet, I cringe at the thought of it.